when words fail, music speaks

'feeling worst' apa saja rasa x best yg timbul dgn tiba-biba, mesti ada sesuatu. bkn byk pikir atau macam2 tp mmg mcm tu lah! rasa x best bila ada je sesuatu, ada sesuatu bila rasa x best!

dia x salah, cuma dia x kata apa2. aku salah sbb aku punya satu rasa yg x sepatutnya aku ada jika dia x dak apa2. tp jika ada apa2, aku harus pikir apa, kenapa, mengapa, dan bagaimana..

x suka, x suka, x suka!!! ya tuhan, ambil lah rasa yg x best ini #amin

metweegram

u didn't mean it, but u did mean it.. 

wat a small world, again!!!

"it i a small world, but we all run in big circles"

borak-ing wit one of my osmet last saturday, haih pusing2 kat situ jugek!

Pesan Ayahanda

cikgumat: hg penah wat solat dhuha?

anakdia: x penah (jujur)

cikgumat: buat la kalau ada masa, boleh murahkan rezeki, permudahkan apa yg susah, perdekatkan apa yg jauh.. tahu mcm mana tak?

Pengenalan Solat Dhuha:

Rakaat : 2,4,6 hingga 12
Waktu : 10 pagi, atau antara 7am - 1pm petang sebelum waktu zohor, “Solat Dhuha ini afdalnya ketika matahari telah meninggi dan kian panas sinarnya.” Imam Nawawi menghuraikan masa tersebut sebagai masa berlalunya seperempat tempoh siang hari iaitu pukul 10 pagi hingga 1 petang (Kitab al-Majmu’ karangan Imam Nawawi).

Cara Ringkas Solat @ Sembahyang Sunat Dhuha :

1. Rakaat Pertama Lafaz Niat Solat Dhuha, "Allahuakbar" & Niat dalam hati :

- Lafaznya: "Sahaja aku sembahyang sunat Dhuha 2 rakaat kerana Allah Ta'ala"
- Baca Alfatihah hingga akhir
- Baca Surah, pendek pun takpa. (lebih Afdhal jika baca surah As-Syams )

2. Rakaat Kedua 
- Baca Alfatihah
- Baca Surah, pendek pun takpa. (paling afdhal surah Addhuha)
- Ketika sujud rakaat terakhir, baca 3x:

- Tahiyyat akhir & Beri Salam..

3. Doa Solat Dhuha

Maksudnya: Ya Allah, sesungguhnya waktu Dhuha itu waktu DhuhaMu, kecantikanny adalah kecantikanMu,

keindahan itu keindahanMu, kekuatan itu kekuatanMu, 

kekuasaan itu kekuasaanMu dan perlindungan itu perlindunganMu.

Ya Allah, jika rezekiku masih di langit, turunkanlah, dan jika di dalam bumi, keluarkanlah, 

jika sukar, permudahkanlah, jika haram, sucikanlah dan jika jauh, dekatkanlah.

Berkat waktu dhuha, kecantikan. keindahan, kekuatan, kekuasaanMu, 

limpahkan kepadaku segala yang Engkau telah limpahkan kepada hamba-hambaMu yang soleh. #amin

Memo - Lateness RM10/- Contribution to Sport & Recreation Club (SRC)

harini monday, biasalah traffic on monday ni x tentu, kadang2 ok but kadang2 jem lain mcm. so ramai ke staff #owg lambat masuk opis arini. HR telah meng-list kan nama org berkenaan termasuk TPS, dan dgn selambanya datang ke finance utk collect wang tersebut. persoalannya wajar lag mereka2 ini membayar denda tersebut?

menurut budak HR tu dia hanya menjalankan tugas. our boshi datuk dan datin yg bg arahan. apa pun budak HR tu gagal collect walau satu sen pun utk harini.

move foward..

aku x paham, walau cuba utk paham.. masih tetap x paham. so aku rasa patut saja aku wat-wat x paham, meaning dat 'ignore' je. there's some reason kot knp jadi mcm tu & mcm ni. it's not org x bley terima kelemahan diri kita, maybe kita yg x bley accept rejection. apapon ade org lain yg makan garam dulu kot. we learn to grow-up. kan? u made mistake u learned, me also learned, mcm tu jgk org lain. semua sama saja but differences stories.

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don't EVER say "i apologize" to a #Virgo

..they NEED to hear "i am sorry" and they can see it in ur eyes if u TRULY mean it!

#sentap happen sometime. aku x pasan pon yg pasal pin no pon menjadi agak sensitif pd dia. dat pin no is annivesary date kot. pd aku x bg apa2 meaning pon, cuma aku dh pakai pin tu lebih dari 10yrs. satu hal ttg aku ni, jenis pelupa. alasan aku x nk tukar pin no tu before dis sbb takut terlupa + tersalah pin. tu jer. tp aku x sedar kdg2 perkara yg aku rasa remeh temeh tp tak bg org lain.

"sorry syg, my fault. kite dh tukar pin no tu. jgn simpan dlm hati ye.."

Banjir Part 1 @ourcrib

hujan lebat, sejuk sgt, sedang syok melayan ngantuk, tibabiba terpandang sesuatu dari arah bwh pintu balkoni. sekelip mata je air hujan dh melimpah masuk. ini baru air hujan, mcm manalah tsunami tu kan?

rupanya saluran air balkoni tersumbat, air melimpah masuk ke bilik. terganggu aktiviti rehat we ols :|

have u ever wish met ur boo's ex someday?

guess whO i met today? bukan met la actually.. ternampak dari jauh je. but the awkward part is when my boo received text from her, asking where she is. x salah pon sebenarnye kalo xde apa2 tp #sentap.kOt sendiri.

kalau bukan kita sendiri yang bentuk, siapa lagi?”

too many re-start after long relationship! it’s not always about trying to fix something broken. its about starting over and creating something better. org ckp big girl don’t cry! tapi aku menangih je.. aku sakit, aku sakit kan org lagik. tp bukan aku mnt semua ni jadi cengini.

to whom it may concern: the best thing I can do is just apologize and let the past be the past..

that's it!

1 time u hate me, 1000 times i HATE U!

How to Stop Being Jealous

"Love is not jealous, ... does not look for its own interests, does not become provoked"

Jealousy is when you react negatively towards the possibility of losing what you have to someone else. Unlike envy, it usually involves three people, rather than just two: you, the person who has what you want and the person who threatens to take it away. It's an unhealthy habit that can make any kind of relationship crumble; if you're a jealous person, you have seen how much damage it can do. But at the core of jealousy are some fears and expectations that are hard to shake, unless you make a conscious effort to cast them away.

1. Observe what triggers your jealousy

Certain situations will trigger an image or possibility in your mind that you dread. What are the images and possibilities that pop into your head when jealousy strikes?

2. Bite your tongue 

When you feel jealousy taking over, don't react in a destructive way. Don't accuse, don't give the silent treatment, don't roll your eyes, and don't show any signs of displeasure. Try to do the opposite of what a jealous person would do. If a friend is going to spend time with someone else, for example, recommend a good movie or restaurant. If your partner is talking to someone else, leave them be. Do what a completely trusting person would do in your shoes, even if it makes you feel crazy. Jealous behavior can bring any kind of relationship to its knees, so nip it in the bud. Make time to discuss, using nonviolent communication, what made you feel jealous later, when the strong feelings of jealousy have passed, and you're not as likely to overreact.

3. Recognize that jealousy is a self-fulfilling prophecy

When you behave jealously, you don't respond to someone's behavior--you respond to what you believe someone's behavior implies. In other words, you're reacting to a scenario in your mind that you fear, but that hasn't happened yet, and might not happen at all. By playing with another adult, for example, your child isn't doing something inherently wrong. Neither is your partner who calls to offer condolences to their ex whose mother just died. But your negative reaction to what you believe their behavior implies (that someone else is somehow better than or more important than you) will make the person feel defensive and paranoid, because they're being accused of doing something bad. The more defensive and paranoid they get, the more suspicious and jealous you get. It's a vicious cycle that's difficult to reverse.

4. Build self confidence

Jealousy is usually a by-product of insecurity and low self-esteem. Sometimes it's a deep-rooted fear of abandonment that someone will leave you, or withdraw their love or attention from you because you're "not good enough"--if so, you need to learn that other people's behavior and lives are not a reflection on you. Confident people know that even when they are rejected or ridiculed, it's not always because they failed; sometimes people are just short-sighted. And even if they do fail, it doesn't reduce their worth; it simply means they need to learn something new.

5. Stop comparing yourself to other people

Some people seem to have it all, but be realistic--does anyone really lead a problem-free life? They might seem to lead acomfortable life (as many wealthy people do) but it's not always a fulfilling life. And even beautiful, successful celebrities have emotional breakdowns, get cheated on, struggle with addictions, get arrested, and lose their fortunes. Make friends with someone who you think has it all--sincerely take an interest in their lives--and you'll eventually discover that they have their hidden struggles. But they don't live their lives constantly worried that someone else will come along and take away everything that gives them joy; their lives aren't characterized by jealousy. Learn from them.

6. Stop feeling entitled to all of a person's time

 If you get jealous when you see someone you care about interacting with or spending time with someone other than you, then you need to consider "How much of this person's time do I really want?" It's understandable if you want to spend a certain amount of quality time with your partner, child, parent, or friend. If they're not spending any time with you, then your concerns are valid. But if they spend a good deal of time with you but you never feel like it's enough, and deep down you'd prefer it if you were together all the time, then it's not healthy. Find other activities, and other people to do them with, to fill your time.

7. Trust

If you get jealous easily, you've probably had your trust broken. Most of the time, the trust was broken in the past, and you inadvertently project your fear of being hurt again onto someone else. The question you need to ask yourself is whether this person (the person who you worry will hurt you) has ever done anything to break your trust in the past. If the answer is no, then it's important to give them credit for that, and not treat him or her like a criminal. If the person has broken your trust in the past, then it's time to forgive, or else jealousy will ruin the relationship. Period.

8. Be positive

Ultimately, jealousy is a fear-based behavior. You're spending a lot of time worrying about something bad that hasn't happened yet, and might not happen at all. In doing so, you're increasing the likelihood of bad things happening by fostering suspicion and distrust. Try to focus on the positive, instead. Be thankful for what you have. And remember that if someone is going to hurt you, there's nothing you can do to stop it anyway. No amount of nagging, monitoring, accusation, snooping, or guarding will prevent you from being hurt. If you believe in someone, believe in them completely; give them all your trust. The benefit of the doubt is essential for any relationship to work. And if you really don't trust them, if you really feel that the person is weak, deceptive, or otherwise untrustworthy, then don't associate with them. You deserve better.

T.I.P.S

• Always examine your jealous thoughts for a sense of entitlement. Whatever it is that someone is getting and you're not (thus sparking jealousy) is something that you feel entitled to; something that you feel is rightfully yours. Instead of trying to convince someone (through jealous behavior) that they should give you what you want, think of ways you can earn it. Focus on being a good person.
• The best way to make someone spend even more time away from you is to act jealous. When you're being angry, snarky or sarcastic, you're not only less fun to be around, you're making the person feel that you think you own them.
• Prepare a list of good qualities about yourself and focus inward. This will help resolve any internal insecurities that you have. Remember, those insecurities are manifested outwardly through your jealousy.
• Do not let them see that you are jealous, because they could have the right to be mad at you.
• Give yourself a day to cool down, do not react immediately. Always give your partner the benefit of the doubt. Do not believe anything until you have actually seen it.... but if you have a bad feeling and you are absolutely convinced your partner is cheating, then just walk away, it is hard but time heals any wound, there are plenty of fish in the sea.

sebelum peristiwa itu..

..ketibaan bff ku sambut dgn hati yg senang, tq again bff sbb sanggup ke kg halamanku. mereka sgt selesa bertegur sapa, sembang2, aku bertambah senang. masih sama seperti dulu, agaknya itu kelebihan bff. mudah disenangi sesiapa pon, tua@muda betul tak statement aku ni? heee.. apatah lg mak aku yg garang dulu dan skarang tu.

aktiviti kami jalan kt pasar sabtu, makan, main internet, sembang2, tgk tv, jalan2 kt pekan koboi.. ntah kenapa mak beria2 suruh kami blk perlis? bff ckp ”x kot..” aku x mengerti disebalik semua ini, hanya menganggap omongan biasa.

akhirnya smp masa utk kami balik ke KL bsama myBU. perjalanan kami blm pn separuh jalan, bff dikejutkan dgn berita yg kurang enak. tanggal 15hb julai 2011, bersamaan ahad, ayahanda tercintanya meninggalkan bff sekeluarga. al-fatihah utk Arwah Hj Baharom, semoga beliau sentiasa ditempatkan bsama2 org yg beriman. Amin

#Lifeislikethis…

finally i made up my mind, tender my resignation yesterday @27th of July 2011: tuesday. dh masuk 6 thn kot aku menjadi warga NSTL. rasanya dh smp masa utk aku beralih arah, mengubah selera, mencuba sesuatu yg baru. berat jgk utk melepaskan sesuatu yg dh serasi dgn life aku, my finance’s mates: rozita, zam, ayu, ikhwan, eija, opis’s mates yg lain: yg close dgn aku, bos a.k.a ninja, my fav workstation, my fav it people: syahadan and etc.

“whatever with the past has gone, the best is always yet to come”

“life is complicated. it starts bfore we’re ready, continues while we’re still figure out & ends long before we’ve worked out just what to do..”

apa saja yg kita nk buat or mahu dlm hidup kita, mst ada ’pro & con’. maybe tpt baru best environment-nya tp x bley bersosial (fb, twitter, ym, blogging and etc.). seb baik pakai bb.. xde la kemaruk or kempunan sgt. kawan2 baru.. boss baru.. semuanya serba baru. even kerja aku pon baru, wat ever it is aku harap ni adalah langkah aku seterusnya utk kembangkan pengetahuan dan pengalaman aku. doa kan yg terbaik utk aku.. amin. apa pon melupakan semuanya tidak sama sekali. ianya akn terus kekal sebagai kenangan manis.

anyhow, u ols can always find me here. if xde apa2 i will conteng2 kt sini lah..

bff stand for “best friend forever” ???

a friend is sweet when its new, but it is sweeter when its true! sapa2 saja ada dan boleh ada ‘bff’ @ kawan baik. I’ve one, cik norhayati baharom, atau nama glemer dia kt KL Rin Rindianes. penah off sekejap atas sbb2 tertentu..tetttt. for me semua yg terjadi dlm satu2 friendship, baik suka or duka tu mematangkan lg masing2. semua org buat silap kot, but setiap org ada hak jgk nk memaafkan @ memilih status “unfriend”. semua org ada hak utk menentukan masih blh menjadi kawan atau tak di atas reason masing2.

@lurve3110:#scorpio’s love their friends and will do anything for their close friends@renbOwsStar.
pd aku, apa yg jadi antara aku dan bff tu ada hikmah disebaliknya. terus terang perasaan kecewa tu mmg ada pd mulanya. tp mcm org selalu cakap “life must go on”. mungkin ini masa utk aku dan bff menilai sendiri sejauh mana friendship kami. aku penah buat salah, aku penah dimaafkan. so rasanya x salah aku dgr penjelasan dia dan memaafkannya. once aku dh accepted dia, maksudnya aku dah bersedia memaafkan dan menerimanya semula. so aku rasa x perlu sapa2 lg nk pertikaikan ttg ni.

real friends (@lurve3110) don’t got to speak everyday just to keep a connection.
to people yg sengaja mengerukan friendship aku dgn citer2 lama tu. aku rasa dia perlu cerminkan diri sendiri. sekurang2nya kami dah memohon maaf sesama kami. so upset dgn apa u people cuba buat. be mature dan cuba teruskan hidup normal seperti org lain, bkn menyusahkan org lain. semoga kawan2 yg masih ada bsama2 dia, masih sedia menerima kelebihan dan kelemahan yg ada padanya. aku mohon dijauhi org2 seperti ini. amin.